16 October 2012

me n u

I often wonder what

made us fall in love
with each other
We are so different
from each other
Our strengths
and weaknesses
are so different
Our ways
of approaching things
are so different
Our personalities
are so different
Yet our love
continues to grow and grow
Perhaps the differences
we have add to the
excitement of our relationship
and I know that both of us
as a team are stronger
than either of us alone
We are basically different from
each other
but we have so many
feelings and emotions in common
And it really doesn't matter
why we fell
in love
All that matters to me
is that we continue
to respect and love
each other

ok, aku lagi gagah/macho/kacak/bergaya.haha..
#aku bukan perempuan ayu#

we both aware the differences between us, and we agreed to accept it, bcause nothing wrong with it, we used to it. the differences make us enjoying this relationship. i accept the way he is, and he accept the way i are..he is the one who attract my attention at the first sight. i know i can't say he is the one for me as we dont know about 'jodoh' right. but i can say he is the one who stay with me no matter what and never leave me alone. he is the one who know me exactly who am i. he is the one, i feel ease with, he is the one who always with me through thick or thin. he is the one who make me believe myself. he is the one who make me feel 'someone'. he is the one who make me feel secured.

 we have nothing in common except one:


derp, y u are more 'ayu' than me..

04 October 2012

star don't shine without darkness

Sometimes life seems hard to bear
Full of sorrow, trouble and flaw
It is then I have to remember
That it is in the valleys I grow.
Rainbow will never show
without storm and cloud
success will never be experienced
without failure and down

If I always stay on the mountain top
And never experience pain,
I would never appreciate Allah’s love
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn
And my progress is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it’s in the valleys I grow.

I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
Allah will see me through.

Forgive me Allah, for complaining
When I’m feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it’s in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me
And appreciate my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.

Thank you for this valleys
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it’s in the valleys I grow!

02 October 2012

the path that i have taken

In the name of Allah the gracious the merciful

the journey had started from 2006
when i first registered to join PKBM (L)
i asked my brother about my decision and he only said,

"a journey of thousand miles begin with one small step''

i dont get him when he said that to me.

so, this is my first step, which i dont expect it will be a journey of my life.
padang sasar kd sultan ismail (pularek)

1st marching comp (district). #we won.

up untill my fifth year at secondary school,  
i thought it gonna be the last time
i would wear that 'uniform'.

but as my brother said, it is the starting of my journey.
later, i pursue to usm.
and suddenly i make up a decision to join ROTU.
im not even pay attention during the promotion by seniors.
all i did was, enter the DK J (if im not mistaken)
fill up the form, measure height and weight.
undergo the UKA

on malam mesra for new intake

its been 3 years of training
 after all sweat, blood, tears
 it was 17 july 2012, at square parade
of universiti utara malaysia
when temenggung kedah offically annouced us as 
Young Officer
only Allah knows how it feel..

commission day



is it the end of journey
the beginning of new journey

for me, it is the end for the 1st path, it like we had came to the 1st checkpoint.
there are lots awaiting for us in next path

after this 1st checkpoint, come with me to the next path are


which i will carry out with honest, loyalty, courage and pride.

the journey will never end as long we still alive
i had learn a lots during this first path
and i pray hard that the next path
will teach me a lot more

this is the path that i have taken
the choice that i have chosen

insyaAllah, god will, may Allah ease everything that i do
and let me contribute something while
being in journey to jannah, insyaAllah.

because i believe that

''we are not put on this Earth for ourselves..but are placed here for each other''


19 September 2012


move on.
that is the only thing i have to do now..
there is nothing i can do about the past..
wake up and looking forward..
there is more room to improve..
it is time to perform the best i can..
the past had became the history..
the present is something that i should work out.
and the future is something bright that waiting for me..
stay positive. i know i can be somebody in future..
may Allah blessed all of us..

02 July 2012

towards the end point

 kami akan bakal berkampung di UUM selama 15 hari
sempena  upacara pentauliahan palapes IPTA kali ke-31

me and derp
salute bakal Lt Muda PSSTLDM

Lt M Muhammad Syafiq Bin Salim (UTM)
Lt M Siti Nor Artikah Binti Arbin (USM)

may Allah ease everything.
after 3 years of training, at last, alhamdulillah
praise to Allah.

Commission Date: 17th july 2012

25 June 2012

the best lesson learned

where ending line seem closer.
i hope i had done the best for all.
for myself also.
from these i learn so many thing.
how leadership, co-operation, pain, sorrow
victory, love, friendship,
loyal, faith, trust
lies on the line.
responsibility cant be define
its come when you realize people
are depending on you.
a good leader is a good follower.
path taken, journey almost towards the end
and i take from it all i possibly can.
achievement is not what i want.
lesson is what i yearn for.
make me stronger
make me wiser
make me better
make me become a person 
who i am now.
and i'm grateful, thanks Allah for giving this opportunity
to learn something 
lesson that i will never learned from class 
or read from books. 
but be taught in special way.

dream ---> reality # NO 2

my second project, my last project before i get commission. also one of my wishlist.
an extreme water sport.  its great. i love this white water rafting. special thanks for those who really put an effort to make this project  real.
here we are:



when i turn dream into reality

during national services training, we had session where we need to list down all our dream and make a poster of it. i still have that poster in my treasure box at home. so far i had 3 so-called treasure box:

1. Box of STF
2. Box of Kem Asahan
3. Box of KMJ

These 3 boxes contain all the memorable things that i had during every stage of my life. i like keeping those things even its more look like rubbish somehow it have its own sentimental value. okay enough for those boxes, what im going to write is about dream. about all my wishlist. so far i had 40++ wishlist needed to be accomplish. this list gonna be added up by times.
2012 is the year where i think i really work out to achieve what i want to accomplish.
the biggest thing ever done by me this year is by organizing a project to Broga Hill. it really what i deadly want to do. speaking of it, i plan to hike Broga Hill since my first year of degree. but there are lots of things that i should consider. i know my parents wont allowed me to do so by myself.
so during my third year time, i plan this 'dream' to be one of Palapes activity. not even i can fulfill my wishlist, i also can bring all my friend there. i spend time, energy, dealing with outbac people, try to find the best consultant to hike Broga Hill.
WHY Broga Hill?? i just love the scenery,i once accidentally browsing some picture and found this hill which people keep talking about the beautiful view it have. so after gone through all the paperwork, group insurance, transport. here i am, at the first peak of Broga Hill.

i cant describe what i really feel when i first saw Broga hill. KEPUASAN. thats it. thats what i feel when i turn my 'dream' into reality. and i not alone, i brought 70+ people to fulfill my dream. its double joyfulness when see they enjoy themselves with my first project.
Plus, this Broga shirt is also my choice, i just love the design. this is my sweetest memories ever.


soal hati itu rumit

why girls would choose the one who always 
make she cry rather than the one who always cheering her up?
 many korean love story
the girl will end up loving the one who always yell at her. 
the man who is so egoism, 
full of hatred and 
always make people around him annoyed by his behaviour. 
the man who always want to win and hard to apologize.
 eventhough everyone hate that man damn much, 
 the girl still stick to him.
 personally, when both of them are alone,
 that man treat this girl so nicely. 
only she know how the man is exactly. 
he might be harsh but he is honest. 
he never lie about his feeling. 
he shows his anger so that he wont be a pretender. 
his word might hurt people but what he said is the truth. 
he just so simple and open minded. 
he doesnt like those unnecessary things. 
he just do whatever he think was right. 
sometimes he also cry over a simple thing. 
he just a normal man with a great heart. 
he loves the girls unconditionally. 
he loves the girl but he do not how to express it. 
he just care too much to his beloved one 
because he do not want something happen to her. 
he loves the girls but he do not know how to comfort his girl.
seem like the girl having such a hard time to endure with that guy.
 eventhough she had someone who can make her smile, 
cheer her up but she can never lie to her heart. 
she just love that man so deeply. 
sometimes she will think that when that man yell at her, 
its the way for he to display his love.
she just so in love with that man and can never love anyone else. 
eventhough her lips will tell lies, but not his heart.
thanx for loving me even more.^_^
 i know u better than anyone else
 and loving you is the best thing i ever done.

24 June 2012

::back to nature::

setelah hampir sebulan menjalani latihan industri dan kerja-kerja sampingan
hujung minggu ni, aku pergi merehatkan tubuh yang semakin lesu 
dan minda yang serabut.

lokasi: Air Terjun Titi Kerawang..